Untitled Rumi

It's the start of a good week whenever I rise early, write a poem and have the joy of perfecting it as the days progress. Part of my morning writing ritual is flooding my senses with inspiring poetry as soon as I awaken. One of my favorite poets is Rumi. Often I see a line he wrote so many years ago and wish he were alive today to expand on a line or two. Then, I remember--energy never dies, it just changes form....

Untitled Rumi
©Karla Johnston, InnerConstellation.com

“When one of us gets lost, is not here, he must be inside us.”

                                                            ~Rumi

Beyond words, tone, volume
and all crutches used to communicate,
or perhaps disguise,
there are underlying feelings:
expressions,
mannerisms,
some call it, ‘body language.’

Crutches draw all eyes to the obvious hobble,
the physical injury in plain sight.
But what condition is the heart, the very center?
Is it wide-open,
walled-off,
content,
lost?

To feel your way inside,
through constant,
pulsing,
subtle energy,
holds up the magic mirror.
Don’t be surprised if you see yourself
reflected there.

Magnus MacFarlane-Barrow

I was exercising the other day and turned on the TV to pass time. A man with a Scottish accent was being interviewed (I'm a sucker for the Highland voice:). With soft-spoken, humble demeanor, Magnus MacFarlane-Barrow shared an amazing story, and I knew I had to highlight him on the Freedom Series section of my blog. He and his brother were sitting in a pub one day when the local news picked up a story on famine-stricken Somalia. After watching the devastation, they asked, "Wouldn't it be wonderful if we could just do one small thing to help?" Ah, the life-changing question! The brothers decided to spearhead a local community gathering of food, clothing, blankets and medical supplies. They loaded up all the accumulated goods and drove to Somalia. When the men returned to Scotland, an avalanche of continued donations greeted them. Imagine Magnus's reply (in Scottish accent, please:), "I was touched by the overwhelming generosity of others. I saw all of these donations in our family home and thought, 'Wow, people are good,' and it inspired me to be good too." Magnus quit his job, sold his home and started Mary's Meals, an organization that now feeds 900,000 daily meals to children around the world at the cost of about 8 cents a child.

If, like me, your radar picked up on the organization's name, it is named for the Virgin Mary. According to Magnus, there is no ministry attached to his work, "We are very careful to never link feeding and faith. We serve those in need...period." Amen! Any one with a momma's heart would proudly support his mission.

If you find yourself curious, check out MarysMeals.org. Magnus MacFarlane-Barrow won the 2010 Hero of the Year Award from CNN. If you wish to check out this year's candidates of everyday people following their North Stars, go to CNNHeroes.com and vote on your favorite. A special tribute show will air on December 11 at 8ET/5PT announcing the winner, so get out there and honor these heroes with your vote. In closing, Magnus summed up his organization with what I thought was the perfect blessing: "I've learned...that every small act of kindness makes a difference."

I was Jodie Foster!!!

 There are three parts of the energetic anatomy that make up my Inner Constellation work:

1)  Mind
2)  Heart
3)  Nervous System

I had an experience this week that provided insight into the 'Mind' aspect of the Energetic Anatomy and thought to share. I watched the movie, "Silence of the Lambs" last evening. I still cringe even as I type the title! If you haven't seen it---Spoiler Alert!!!!!!!! You might be familiar with the scene when the main character (played by Jodie Foster) is down in the murder's basement when the whack-job kills the lights and begins tracking her with night goggles. As I watched this scene, my heart physically went into overdrive and began beating against the walls of my chest--no kidding. I was there, I was Jodie Foster! After watching the movie, my mind kept returning to a variety of disturbing scenes, and I had increased appreciation for a concept I've labeled, "Point of Focus." When working with the mind, I will often ask, "Where are my thoughts?" and "What am I believing?" In other words, what's my Point of Focus, for whatever I give attention to increases. One sign for me that my thoughts are not healthy is when I begin ruminating or my thoughts become cyclic, a sure sign that my energy is stuck in a loop. Whenever I wish to shift my Point of Focus into something that feels better I practice two things:

1) Gratitude - what are the gifts in spite of what appears to be tragedy, stress or a grievance? Using my silly example of the movie last night, the gifts were plentiful: cuddle time with my beloved husband and sweet kitty, I could stay up late since I didn't have work in the morning, the movie clarified that suspenseful murder mysteries are not for me, the light-hearted (!), I gained insight into the workings of my mind, the plot and story-line were exceptional, I could go on and on. Gratitude for the gifts shifts my Point of Focus from a heart-pounding experience to a healthier experience.

2) EFT - Emotional Freedom Technique and other Meridian Therapies are masterful at literally accessing points on the body to interrupt negative thought patterns. Tapping acupressure points has also proven to lower stress hormones such as Cortisol, released by the body when a threat is perceived, either real or as a result of thinking. The mind is incredibly powerful and is a central component to feeling good. EFT accesses the intricate chain of reaction elicited by the mind to develop healthier Points of Focus.

These are my top two techniques to shift my Point of Focus and calm the wild, chasing mind--you know, the one being stalked by a serial killer! Yikes.

9-11 Commemoration

I've had a very reflective weekend after being hit with a wave of sad news. It started Tuesday on my way to work when I drove by the IHOP shooting thirty minutes after it had happened. Then, I heard of the death of a friend's young family member from a heroine overdose. Believe it or not, it didn't stop there--another friend's 18 year old daughter has been given two years to live if a new liver is not found and my co-worker's 16 year old daughter was diagnosed with stage IV cancer. Why am I telling you this? It's not to be a kill-joy but to share with you an insight I had during this weekend of remembrance. I was sitting in my garden yesterday and saying prayers for all those touched by the circumstances of the week, when I noticed a bee diving into the funnel of a fox glove blossom. I marveled at this as fox glove's flowers, seeds, sap, roots and leaves are all highly poisonous but apparently not to bee as this one extracted nectar again and again. As I watched, a question surfaced:

Is it possible to transmute poisons in our lives and turn them into nectar? 

The word "transmute" is perfect, for it means, "to change in form or energy." Often it's a term used in alchemy, such as transmuting lead to gold. I asked myself how I could possibly transmute the IHOP massacre? An answer popped up readily: I could go to the memorial outside the restaurant on Monday and leave my business card along with a flyer, offering free EFT sessions to anyone impacted by the event. And what about my friend's family member who died from the overdose? My husband had already covered that one by going fishing with our friend and planning more river time (he always figures things out way before I do:). What of the 18 year old and 16 year old battling for their lives? I called Chevy's restaurant and began planning community fund-raisers for both of them.

Next time "poison" presents itself, how might we respond like bee and transmute the experience? I think this is a wonderful question to consider on the 10th anniversary of 9-11 and maybe even more importantly, for all personal tragedies from the past and in the future. I look so forward to hearing your thoughts and pray comfort to each of you on this weekend of remembrance.

Musings

After writing Part 1 and Part 2 of "My God, My Tourniquet," I came across a poem I wrote a few months back and thought it was a nice summary of the two articles. Enjoy....

Legal Interpreter
©Karla Johnston, InnerConstellation.com

Changing one language, English, into another’s source language, sign language,
back and forth: faithfully, accurately, to the best of the interpreter’s ability.
Such oath requires tremendous equanimity,
not entertaining one’s innate, internal filter
but rather translating precisely
while leaving judgment to someone else.

Today’s offense was domestic violence—a baby and toddler were involved.
Signs that one should never see, flowed from hands
as  interpreter analyzed the many layers of language:
lexical, phrasal, sentential and discourse.

Interpreter’s mind worked overtime,
while inside the apparent translating machine,
unbeknownst to those who watched,
she experienced a liberating call:
her long-ago-silenced-inner-voice spoke one arresting word—“suffering.”
Heart, typically not invited to court proceedings,
opened to receive the news.
Communication steadily flowed
as mind and heart engaged.

Beyond limits of words and language a greater Source bore witness.
Court room interpreter was, for the first time in her translation, entirely free.

"My God, My Tourniquet" Part 2

The post prior, debated if Heart-Centered Breathing is enough when presented with a difficult situation. What if the difficulty is sustained, like in the example of my friend in Part 1? For me, Heart-Centered Breathing is a first step, but if a charge remains over a situation I proceed with meridian tapping, or a technique more commonly called EFT (Emotional Freedom Technique). Meridian tapping is a simple, self-applied technique that accesses the body's acupressure points to release any charge that our bodies hold over situations (showing up as thoughts, emotional upset, body symptoms, etc). If you go to my website you can watch an informative video (blue icon) about how EFT works and cruise around for more information on meridian tapping. 

Here's the basic premise, when physical or emotional trauma of any sort is experienced, the body usually chooses one of three responses: fight, flight or freeze. Most people are familiar with fight and flight but give little attention to the freeze response—our body’s miraculous way of freezing pain until we can process it later when it’s safe to do so. Think of all the times you experienced an emotional or physical jolt; was it appropriate or even possible to fight the source of your discomfort or run from it? Our bodies often hold the distress until it can be dealt with. Fight, flight or freeze are the conventional reactions to trauma; In my Inner Constellation work, I utilize a fourth response—flow. Emotions, including pain, are meant to pass through the body, not remain stuck. Meridian tapping loosens the areas in the body where pain may be frozen, waiting for appropriate release. This mind-body practice also accesses your deep, inner resource, which provides personalized insight and is a storehouse of solutions beyond what any outside source can provide to you. Unfortunately, in western culture we’re rarely taught to honor the inner part of ourselves that meridian tapping acknowledges. In fact, we’re usually encouraged to seek answers outside ourselves in the form of experts, books or substances that provide temporary relief. Through meridian tapping, obstacles are recognized, physically discharged out of the body, and healthier suggestions or “keys” are imbedded in the subconscious mind. These “keys” are always client-generated, for we are most susceptible to our own suggestions. Meridian tapping is used on the body between sessions as a self-awareness tool to access the deep inner mind and provide further healing to the whole system.

So, Heart-Centered Breathing, as discussed in Part 1 is a compassionate response to difficult situations and can provide a temporary "tourniquet" so to speak, but if any charge remains, consider pulling out the big gun--meridian tapping or EFT. Remember, ya'll, I provide no-charge consultation if you wish to contact me, and would love to hear from you if you're interested in literally tapping into the incredible resource of your Inner Constellation!